The Wells Farm

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Jordie's learned a lot of things since the woman from the Watchers' Council first found her and told her what she was. Not all of them were learned at the Slayer Academy; and of those that were, not all of them were part of anyone's lesson plan.

This week, she's learning how to muck out goats.

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"More than a Slayer." Spoon says, firmly, "Slayer is a bloody calling, but it isn't everything. It can't be everything, because if all you are is a Slayer than you can be taken away from yourself. Hell, it might not even be a genuine calling, it's a bleeding duty tossed on you by a bunch of fanatic gits who want to save the world and hadn't a clue how to go about it past dump the responsibility on a bunch of girls an' then send them out like weapons."

He's got Issues against sending little girls into battle, okay? It's a thing.

"You're a person, Jordie. Not a bloody weapon. Weapons, tools, people. Weapons kill shite. Tools fix shite. People decide what needs to be done an' collect whatever weapons and tools are needed to do it, then go do it. The Council trained you into a weapon. Up to you to decide that you're going to be more than that."

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Long silence, this time.

"There isn't anything else I want to be," she whispers, finally.

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"Need to figure something out, luv." he says quietly, "Because that's part of the beauty of being sentient. You get to be a lovely, multi-faceted, whole person instead of a one-trick animal. Lucky for you, you've got a whole farm full of people struggling with the same question; what else is there for me?"

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Not you. Never you.

The thought's so clear in her head that for a moment she's horribly certain that she's said it aloud.

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Considering that the calm, clear look doesn't falter, no. She kept it silent.

He'd agree, though. He's not for her. He's a one-woman wolf, and even if he was once a more wild human...well, she met him long after that wasn't an option any more.

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Jordie looks down at the muddy straw at their feet.

"I should get back to work," she says, very low.

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Spoon nods and says, "You can finish without me. Wash up when you're done and we'll all eat." He insists on set meals for everyone. It's better for Cora that way.

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She nods. "Okay."

One thing the farm has in common with the Academy: there's no privacy anywhere, unless you can find a place to hide. Right now she's missing that little corner by the overgrown herb garden, behind the rosemary bushes.

There's solitude here for a while, at least, once Spoon's gone back inside; and there's work to do with her hands that leaves her mind free to go back over what he's been saying.

Up to you to decide you're going to be more than that.

Something to think about.