"Means everything." Spoon says, slowly, as he tries to put something he just knows on a bone-deep level into words, "It's easy to stop...being part of something...if you don't know who you're part of. It's easy to become what you fight if all your time is spent looking only at the monsters. If you're going...if you're spending your time thinking that normal people are less just because they can't fight, it's an easy slide to thinking that fighting is more important than all the things normal people do.
"Not saying you're there. Saying that it's easy. Seen soldiers fall down that path, and soldiers are just trained, they don't have the kind of power that you do. Great power means greater difficulty keeping y' head on straight is what it means.
"Got to be part of humanity to stay humane. Got to have ties to people, strong ties to people, who won't ever lift a weapon. Got to have them near the centre of your heart because the innocent is a really easy thing to hold up but a really hard thing to hold onto. How do you know how far is too far if you can't pull a face out of your heart and say this would horrify her?
"An' if you don't have strong ties right now then you've got to think the innocent through a bit more. Does innocent mean people who have never hurt other people? If so, you're probably only defending people under the age of two. Does it mean kind people? That's a lot of humans left demon-bait. What does it mean? What are you fighting for, really?
"Knowing that will mean that when you go out an' fight you'll have sommat to come back to. Even if only in y' heart. Having a calm place, a quiet place, inside is what keeps you from burning out.
"This is me calm place." he spreads his arms to take in the farm, from little trees to house, salle to barn, every goat and carrot on the property, "Every bloody thing I do is so that this bit of Yorkshire stays peaceful, one way or another."
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Date: 2009-11-27 08:23 pm (UTC)"Not saying you're there. Saying that it's easy. Seen soldiers fall down that path, and soldiers are just trained, they don't have the kind of power that you do. Great power means greater difficulty keeping y' head on straight is what it means.
"Got to be part of humanity to stay humane. Got to have ties to people, strong ties to people, who won't ever lift a weapon. Got to have them near the centre of your heart because the innocent is a really easy thing to hold up but a really hard thing to hold onto. How do you know how far is too far if you can't pull a face out of your heart and say this would horrify her?
"An' if you don't have strong ties right now then you've got to think the innocent through a bit more. Does innocent mean people who have never hurt other people? If so, you're probably only defending people under the age of two. Does it mean kind people? That's a lot of humans left demon-bait. What does it mean? What are you fighting for, really?
"Knowing that will mean that when you go out an' fight you'll have sommat to come back to. Even if only in y' heart. Having a calm place, a quiet place, inside is what keeps you from burning out.
"This is me calm place." he spreads his arms to take in the farm, from little trees to house, salle to barn, every goat and carrot on the property, "Every bloody thing I do is so that this bit of Yorkshire stays peaceful, one way or another."